So, I’m starting this thing where I put on a playlist and write about whatever topic comes to mind.
I’m starting off with Home by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes.
Firstly, their band name is AWESOME!
On to the actual song. This is one of my sister’s favorite songs. She first played it for me a couple years back and I’ve enjoyed the song ever since. She and I both have experienced extended periods of long distance relationships, so it hits close to home (haha, get it?) for us. What I find interesting about the song is the idea of home being a person rather than a place.
People always say, “Home is where the heart is.”
Growing up, this saying frustrated me. As a product of the military, I never had a place to call home. There was never a place I became attached to enough to consider my home. I felt adrift in the world. Aimlessly going from one place to the next.
Now, as an adult, I actually kind of understand it. It makes some sense. My heart is with my fiancé. (Did I mention that we got engaged?)
Okay, the first song is over and the next one that came on in my Playlist is Better Place by Rachel Platten.
Continuing, I feel most at home when I’m with Patrick. It doesn’t really matter where Patrick and I are. We could be running errands, doing boring chores, or getting lost in Mississippi (remember that Pat?) and I’d still have a blast because I am with him. It’s a strange sensation to be doing dishes and enjoying it, just in case anybody wondered. Still, that’s the gift of loving somebody.
It really does end up feeling like a better world to live in when you find the person you are meant to be with. You end up choosing them every single day. You choose them when they make you angry, when all you want to do is scream into a pillow. That, or hit them with the pillow. You choose the person when you are struggling. Even when you wonder why you are choosing them (which will occasionally be the case).
A HUGE CHANGE OF MUSIC TYPE! I’m now listening to Simple Song by The Shins. It’s a really good Indie-Rock song.
So, this song kind of goes along with what I was saying already. Things will always be rough, but it’s so much easier to cope when you are with a person who loves you. I guess that’s the idea of home. Home, in my mind, has always been a place you feel safe and protected and loved.
It’s interesting—the difference between home as a concrete and an abstract. You can live in one place your whole life and have it still not feel like a home as an abstract. Or you can live in a place for a year out of long life and have that feel like a home. It doesn’t even have to necessarily be a place you’ve lived. I know that for me, the book Harry Potter has always felt like my home. It was a positive light in the midst of bullying. It was a happy memory from my childhood. It is something that stuck with me through all the moves. Home as an abstract can be just about anything.
And the song changed again, except this time I don’t know the song. Let me look.
Alright, the song is called Crystallized by Young the Giant.
I like the sound of this song, it’s very mellow for an alternative rock song. I think I’m going to listen to this song over again to write because, this first time, I wasn’t at all paying attention to the lyrics.
I love the space metaphor for a person who has lost themselves. I think the idea of coming back to a place you know after traveling in space correlates with a home. Sometimes, when all is lost, other people and places have to remind you of who you are inside. Often, you don’t even know who you are, but the person or place sparks something.
This song very much reminds me of a person’s fight with depression. When you are fighting off depression, you need that reminder of why you should hold on. It’s important that you recognize yourself. Depression regularly isolates you and causes you to feel as if you are a stranger to yourself. You are crystallized, watching the world go by you as you stand still. You know you enjoyed certain activities. You know you cared and felt emotions before. But, still you see yourself spiral into this bleak place you don’t think you’ll ever escape. It is the people and places that are your home that help you claw your way out. Ultimately, you are the only one who can save yourself.
Anyways, this is the end of my post for now. I’m going to watch a movie with my mom.
I hope you enjoyed my stream of consciousness, music-inspired blog post.
Let me know what you think and I may do another one in a couple days. Who knows?
Love you all,