I’m Having A Hard Night (A Stream of Consciousness Post)

  I'm having a really hard night, as you probably already guessed from my post title. I'm in immense pain. My back hurts where I got surgery. The change in weather, temperature, and air pressure has taken a toll on my nervous system. I'm at 8 or 9 level pain on my back. (Some people … Continue reading I’m Having A Hard Night (A Stream of Consciousness Post)

10 Random Thoughts From My Bed

[Content Warning: There may be adult content and triggering subjects in this post. Please read with caution if you have triggers related to your mental health or are more sensitive to adult topics.] I'm largely bedridden post-surgery which gives me a lot of time to think, so I am going to write down some of … Continue reading 10 Random Thoughts From My Bed

Hard Choices and Healing

This is going to be a shorter piece than usual because I am extremely pensive at the moment. TRIGGER WARNING: Discussion of depression, anxiety, PTSD, and the mental ward.   Today, I intended on writing something really lighthearted. I wanted to write a fluff piece, something to take my mind off of the hard things … Continue reading Hard Choices and Healing

Chronic Pain: A Free-Form Poem

A life of chronic pain. A life of chronic pain means constantly having to cancel plans or explain why I am not enthusiastic being around people. Irritability. With every step, I cringe, blinking back the tears that I am trying to hide. Eight, Nine, Ten level pain. I shut my mouth and lie when people … Continue reading Chronic Pain: A Free-Form Poem

Why I Got a Tarot Card Reading, Even Though I’m Not Sure I Believe

I've been very lost lately. There is a lot of uncertainty with my thoughts, feelings, actions. I am going through trauma therapy and that brings up a lot of questions that I don't have answers for. My struggles with PTSD, Anxiety, and Depression make me perpetually exhausted, seeking out some sort of guidance towards peace … Continue reading Why I Got a Tarot Card Reading, Even Though I’m Not Sure I Believe